I’m usually not much for discussing previous blog entries. Typically, I write in the moment and use that to process it all and then I’m done with it. Then when someone brings it up a week later I feel awkward speaking about it.. because to me it’s over. But I feel like I’ve learned so much since my November 6 entry of despair and frustration that I wanted to follow up. I can’t believe it’s only been a little over a week, but in that time I’ve had so many comments, messages, conversations that tie back to it (some directly, some indirectly) that it’s been a really good process. And the support from the mommas who have been there or the comradery of the momma who is there was exactly what I needed, even if I didn’t know it. So I praise God for that.

I guess, to try to summarize where I’m at today, there is a time for everything. Dreaming is essential to living. My girls deserve all the love I can give them, but in order to fully love them, my cup needs to be full as well. And that means nurturing myself with the things that I thrive on, like creativity and the quiet moments. I am amazing and wonderful (not puffing up, just quoting the BIG GUY) and he wants me to embrace the way I am, as a mother. And while that might not mean that the time is right to run out and start that photography business, it does mean that I will always have beautiful photos of my girls to remind myself and others of those precious moments that fly away on the breeze of tomorrow. (poetic…)

I suppose we all feel like we’re drowning at one point or another. I was just so thankful for all the hands God sent to pull me up. And most of them had no idea. So I thank you, the ones who allowed God to use your words. You are forever in my heart.

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